the cause of a breakdown...



Back to school night



 
 
 
This little boy started school!  I have been dreading this all summer....I guess all his life!  I have been so stressed this whole month and almost depressed.  He has been so excited though.  I know I've gotta let go, but it is just harder then I ever thought it would be.  I can honestly say you could probably count on two hands how many times Ive been apart from Holden, longer then an  hour. We move so much it's kinda just worked out that way, so not necessarily by chose. But  I didn't want him to go to preschool, and he has never been to daycare or anything! He's never been away from me.

I remember the first time I left him with anyone.  It was for like an hour.  Ryes cousin Kandis came to pick him up to take him to a family reunion or something.  He was like 5 months old.  Anyway, we got him in her car, and she drove off, and I BURST into tears, and bawled.  Since then Rye knows Im a bit attached.  SO, he's been worried about me. 

Knox and I walked him to his lineup (we have to do this every morning, going to be a pain!) and I was so worried about him.  There were so many kids.  But the bell rang and he was gone.  And I kid you not my lips started shaking instantly and I fought the tears the whole way back to the car, and then I BURST into tears, and was literally sobbing!  What is wrong with me?  Poor Knox, said "Im so sad to mom....Its just me and us now hu."  Made me laugh! 

He loves school! and is so happy to be there.  He didn't miss me.  I've been pouting but I will get used to it. 

I'm so glad I've kept him to myself.  So, all you stay at home moms that wonder if it is worth it , Im telling you it is.  Things will change with Holden and I.  He's going to just get bigger and older.  And I will cherish the time I've had with him, taking care of his every need. DONT waste time with your babies, love them and spend every second with them....Can you tell I'm feeling a bit dramatic.   =)  Imagine when he goes to college! haha!     





First day of school!! Knox had to get in on the action.  



The Boys' newest shots

 

 Just wanted these babies on the ole Blog....If I was rich I would get pictures of my boys done every month of their lives!  I love looking at these cute little faces.  Even though 80% percent of the time they make me nuts, I can always look at their pictures and fall in love again!  JLD photography took these, we did just a fast little mini session.

Good news

I know you all know but we are expecting our 3rd boy =) Our little "surprise!" We are still in shock a bit and laugh whenever we talk about it!  We really thought it had to be a girl.  This pregnancy has been like nothing I've ever experienced!  I didnt really have any symptoms at all with my boys except later with my joints, and I was sick with this little stinker before I even tested positive!  Weeks and weeks of not getting out of bed, I would lay in bed and in my mind walk up and down the walmart isle trying to think of just ONE thing I maybe could eat!  So miserable!  I was sooooo tired and skipped the gym up until last week.  I recently had the dreaded 24 hour flu, and besides the puking being more violent, there was no difference than what I had been living with for the last two months. Yet despite all of this I have gained twice the weight I ever have.....pretty lame. BUT I am already forgetting everything, and feeling sooooo much better.  Water tasting like water is wonderful! 

Like I said, we thought it had to be a girl, but from the get go, I had a small feeling it was a boy.  My sister Sam went with me to my ultra sound, and we gotta see the little stinker!  I fell so in love!!  He was so sweet, and wiggly and shy, all at once!  When I called Rye he was shocked, and instantly started laughing and got way excited! He is healthy.....which is all I could ever want!  I think about whats in store for us....three missions right in a row, bands,  sports, sports, more sports,.........girls.. trials, injuries, teachers calling us, wrecking vehicles, broken bones, fights,  maybe a few visits from a police officer......the thoughts start out good =)

 I feel so blessed.....I LOVE my kids.  I could care less about anything else I could be doing.  I know the most important thing I will ever do is raise these boys.  Its the only thing that matters.  Ive just been overwhelmed with gratitude for the opportunity I have to be a mom.  So many don't get the chance.  Rye has always wanted like 12 kids....by two, I was like hummm...maybe three?  But I think you will see a lot of these posts!! =)

Lost summer

We have done NOTHING this whole summer! It has been the saddest summer ever.  We always do so much, but since we knew Rye wouldn't be working full time again we were in the money making business.  He's worked  6 days a week (one day of school all day) being gone from 3am-8pm since the first of May! BUT, no more ever ever again!  He started his program and full time school and is loving it!  We spent the last week catching up on summer.  We have done a ton!  We went on a day trip to a place called Jarbidge NV.  And rode and picnicked.  We took a three day trip to SLC,  and played, school clothes shopped (post about my freaking out over losing my baby boy will be soon) swam and swam, went to Jungle jims, which my boys loved! Went to the children's museum, and small things like a movie and stuff.  We had fun.  Now me and the boys are home (enterprise) for a few days to visit.  Ryes mom had a birthday party, and we were so happy to see all of them and celebrate with her! Life is going good, and going to get SOOO busy.  Sorry about the quality of some of the pictures, most I took with my phone.

Salt Lake

 Knox needs Holden so bad!  He is almost starting to rely on him for everything.  He wouldn't even ride a ride unless Holden was near.  funny story: Knox was standing up peeing in the toilet, and holding his shirt up, you know so it doesn't get peepee on it,  and Holden walks in and starts peeing next to  him. The second Holden stands next to Knox, Knox drops his shirt, and Holden, standing next to Knox, without saying anything while he's peeing to, reaches over and lifts up Knox's shirt for him, and holds it up for him the rest of the time! Knox takes such advantage of Holden! And Holden is way to nice, haha!

 The Childrens museum.

 Rye was so proud of the thing he made...I don't know what it is.

 This little construction hot potato, took his job very serous! We just laughed and laughed at him. 

 Happy Birthday grandma Debbie!